i took this test that was on Diana's website... the results were quite interesting..

Your Existing Situation:
Readily participates in things that provide excitement or stimulation. Wants to feel exhilarated.

Sensuous. Inclined to luxuriate in things which give gratification to the senses, but rejects anything tasteless, vulgar, or coarse.

Your Stress Sources:
Wishes to be independent, unhampered, and free from any limitation or restriction, other than those which she imposes of herself or by her own choice and decision.

Wants to overcome a feeling of emptiness and to bridge the gap which she feels separates herself from others. Anxious to experience life in all its aspects, to explore all its possibilities, and to live it to the fullest. She therefore resents any restriction or limitation being imposed on her and insists on being free and unhampered.

Your Restrained Characteristics:
Has high emotional demands and is willing to involve herself in a close relationship, but not with any great depth of feeling. Feels that she cannot do much about her existing problems and difficulties and that she must make the best of things as they are.

Remains emotionally unattached even when involved in a close relationship. An unadmitted lack of confidence makes her careful to avoid open conflict and she feels she must make the best of things as they are.

Your Desired Objective:
Needs a change in her circumstances or in her relationships which will permit relief from stress. Seeking a solution which will open up new and better possibilities and allow hopes to be fulfilled.

Seeks success, stimulation, and a life full of experience. Wants to develop freely and to shake off the shackles of self-doubt, to win, and to live intensely. Likes contacts with others and is enthusiastic by nature. Receptive to anything new, modern, or intriguing; has many interests and wants to expand her fields of activity. Optimistic about the future.

Your Actual Problem:
Feels restricted and prevented from progressing; seeking a solution which will remove these limitations.

Fights against restriction or limitation, and insists on developing freely as a result of her own efforts.

Your Actual Problem #2:
The fear that she might be prevented from achieving the things she wants leads her to play her part with an urgent and hectic intensity.

hmm... interesting... those are the results from two color quizzes cuz the first time i thought about which color.. the second time i just let my gut choose.. i agree to both though.. both pertain to me.. so it's weird.. i don't know..

anywayz.. there was PCN practice today and i'm so sore right now.. it's from that Jordan Knight dance cuz i was dancing it like 100 times today.. yuck.. tomorrow the MUN ppl. are going to disneyland.. i wish i went but i can't cuz i have a party @ my house and my mom wants me to be there because i have to "entertain" the people coming. if only it was postponed..:( i really wanted to go.. i wanted to see my idol haha..

school.. boring.. as usual.. i just had a work out today at school cuz i had to walk around campus to get stuff to places during 5th period.. and among all the errands i ran during 5th period i had to carry a box full of paper and throw it into the recycling bin. that thing was heavy! then during 6th period i had a test and had to rush through it cuz i had a call slip that was to get me out of class to celebrate Kristen's bday in Ms. Kim's room. we had some mighty tasty cake! yum! and then from 6pm- 10pm i had PCN practice.. phew! i'm tired!

HELLOOOO-DEEE-OOOO!! woo-hoo!! i got myself a blog! haha.. let's see how long this is gonna last! well.. yesterday was quite interesting... i was so hyper in the morning.. then something.. or more of a someone.. threw off my groove. Then i became bummed out the whole day. But then the good part is i ended up finding myself a prom date! yay! that was surprising. Since when does a boy ask me to a dance? I noticed that for every cerritos dance i went to i always either asked the guy or went stag... and for once i was asked that question. Then Premios de Oro was that night. Congrats to Elisa, David, Kristen, and Kitkat! yeah! They all got medals.. sweet. ;)

well.. life's starting to look up again. i think probably 'cuz i'm actually doing something about it. But i've noticed that this year so far, already many friends have walked in and out of my life... and i've noticed a trend on how it got to be. I tell them something SO personal that they wouldn't expect and then *POOF*.. they're gone... i think i've learned my lesson.. don't trust people so easily. i get more heartaches that way. i guess i should have kept my mouth shut so that the people would never know the void that's been in my life for a really LONG time. i'm afraid i told TOO many people. i started by just telling one person.. then each time i feel it's crucial to tell i just blurt it out. but i trust them not to tell.. i'm just a little scared that it will slip cuz it's something i don't like talking about often.

but other than that... i guess i'm ok. i'm just REALLY tired of being lonely and miserable. i don't really see myself as someone who constantly complains about life. but i guess the past 2 weeks or so haven't been going great. but i have a feeling things are starting to get better. i can't wait to go to prom.=)