this has been one tiring week.. it's been like this ever since choir practices started... and i'm tired of it.. good thing that next week is our FINAL week of school!! yay! FINALLY! ... but i feel an emptiness within myself.. a void that seem to be unable to fill.. then on top of that i feel sick to my stomach just thinking that next year is our year to graduate... and it scares me.. i feel like the experience in high school is TOO short... 4 years isn't enough time to get to know someone REALLY well. I'm sure going to miss the seniors... this is actually the first year that i actually got close... and i mean CLOSE... to the seniors.. esp. those in choir cuz there's nothing better to do but just chat.. to think that next year... i'm the senior.. i have no more friends in the upper class cuz i am part of the upper class.. no more dancing and laughing with andy.. no more XXX burgers with Ryan (haha!) no more of Waichael making food runs for SCRIP when we get hungry.. no more joking and goofy off with Tracey... no more Kevin C. to pick on me in Trig.. no more Erin to dance all funky with... no more Deagle to point out my crack (haha!)... no more Bianca and her "Bianca hip movement" along with her beautiful singing... no more David H. telling me to smile when the going gets tough.. no more David T. to upstage Kristen... no more Chris to imitate a turtle or to hold up our 3 fingers and say "read btwn. the lines"... but above all the sadness i'm happy that i was even given a chance to get to know these seniors.. and they have meant SO MUCH to me this year. Maybe one day i could do the same for an underclassmen...each of my senior friends have left an imprint on my heart and in my personality.. ... besides all that... i'm glad school's over! =) and i'm glad things are looking up again! hopefully it stays that way throughout senior year...

o.. BTW.... Felix won $5!! haha go Felix!

welp.. came back from prom.. it was fun.. just felt a little uncomfortable. but dancing with my guyfriends was always fun! haha man.. i'm so tired but i can't sleep. i hope i didn't seem like a B*tch to my date cuz i didn't dance all close to him. it just didn't seem right cuz i still look at him as a little kid that had always found a way to piss me off.. i'm not saying he pissed me off at prom.. it's just that he just wasn't a guy i'd dance with cuz i have known him since we were babies. and he knows that he annoyed me a lot as kids... and i guess those memories started to haunt me.. plus.. he was giving me weird looks like he liked me.. and i've already got too many boy problems that i didn't need another one. sheesh.. i'm sorry if i let him down. he's got more proms to go to anyways... *sigh* anywho.. i thought prom was fun.. it would have been better tho if i went with someone i had a crush on.. or at least mutual feelings.. it just seems easier that way. but since when was life easy? i just made the most of prom and the outcome was fun! so all in all i had a good time dancing with my friends esp. with liezl! =) and chris! haha... i hope everyone had fun.. i had a feeling that someone was looking down my dress the whole time.. but i just shrugged it off and told myself.. it's the only thing i can flaunt!! haha well.. i'm gonna go and sleep.. gotta wake up @ 5:30 AM.. which is in like... 3 hours... bleh.. i g2g to san diego for a baptism.. i'm the ninang (Godmother)!! =) niteynite!