ouch... my teeth are shifting. I got my wisdom teeth taken out last tuesday.. i've gone a week without solid foods, acidic drinks.. and soda.. so i dropped to 129 lbs. and my highest was a 143 lbs. that was this summer too! but i got down to 134 when school started.. and now i'm 129.. wow.. i hope i can keep this weight off.. people say all the weights are in the boobs haha. i believe them cuz damn it's hard to carry them around haha!! but yeah.. before u think i'm weird you'd probably think the same thing if you had them. i speak for all the big breasted people out there!! haha so yeah.. yesterday (12.3.02) was miserable... i had no breakfast.. a small snack.. and then no food in my stomach until 4 pm that day.. my stomach hurted.. my head hurted.. i was dehydrated.. i was one big ball of pain.. on top of that i had menstural cramps (little did i know i was going to start..) so that hit my emotional sector.. yikes. i was a mess.. and yet i pulled through the day by smiling. Smiling always had helped me cheer up... but hugs always fix it.. I just didn't wanna ask for one cuz i think people should give hugs because they want to out of the kindness of their heart.. i don't want no half hearted hug either.. it just shows that the person doesn't really care that much to give me a full embrace.. but NEWAYS.. back on how my day went.... i felt stupid getting all teary-eyed in McDonalds.. my sister was eating right in front of me and i just wanted to eat something.. but with these holes in my mouth, i'm only allowed a SOFT diet.. sheesh.. i was in no mood to talk to anyone because of the pain i was going through inside.. and little did i know that jay, joanna, and solar was there until they made it known by either tapping me or waving goodbye... so of course as a reflex i sucked in my tears and put a smile on my face which did give me a temporary happy feeling when jay said hi to me.. but i felt kinda bad when solar said bye.. that was when the pain inside had reached it's HIGHEST point and i couldn't stand it anymore.. i tried giving a smile but i doubt one came out.. i gave a half hearted wave while trying to ease the throbbing pain in my head.. and that smile on his face with that food in his hand made me realize how miserable i must have looked.. so told my sister to gather her things so we can head home.... luckily when i got home.. i had something to eat.. nice.. cold... soup... i try to pursade myself that it's a NEW diet that i'm trying.. but the holes in my mouth just keep on reminding me that it was no diet.. it was an obligation.. show how much self control i have huh??

but.. on a better note.. today was a bit better.. a happier one at least.. a more carefree i suppose.. it did get kinda hectic at scrip tho cuz nothing balanced.. we have no clue where we went wrong.. but overall.. good and exhausting day..