Monday, September 16, 2002

OMG!! i haven't blogged inna LONGGG time! hehe. Wow.. so school started on the 5th.. my current schedule is:
1: Calc. AB
2: AP English
3: Econ CP
4: Psychology
5: Contemp. Media
6: MUN/AP Comp. Govt

yep.. my busy schedule.. oh man.. so school is ok.. SO FAR.. nothing wrong yet.. no drama.. i'm finally a SENIOR!! woo-hoo! i've worked my butt of for this year.. oh man. It was weird going back to school cuz i haven't seen people during the whole summer. I felt kinda out of the whole social scene cuz of my constant busy schedule that ws filled up with nothing other than babysitting. So i felt bad.. i didn't know how to act cuz everyone has changed and i'm still stuck with the mentality i had as junior... but i guess i just have to suck it in and move on huh. the world won't wait up for me so i just gotta keep on going. i hate thinking that no one would wanna wait up though u know? just a little at least.. oh well. i hope this year will be the most memorable inna GOOD way. i don't wanna spoil my last year as a high school student. I just want everyone to be happy... is that too much to ask for??But lately i find myself trying to make myself happy.. but it just doesn't work.. i should be happy with myself first before i please someone else...

other than that... i've had fun babysitting Trinity. She's so adorable! she's gonna become 8 months soon.. it makes me wonder if i'm gonna be a good mommy when i become one.. haha sometimes i wonder who is gonna be the daddy.. it's too early to think about it.. i know. but sometimes i just cant help it. i think of every guy possible.. who would make a good daddy?? i still have a lot of years ahead to think that.. maybe i should just drop the whole subject and let love find me.. or maybe it's staring right at me and i don't realize it.. just like what my horse did! haha My horse galloped around and then started straight at me.. kristen's interpretation: i'm ready for love... and it's staring at me right in the face! OooO.. i wonder who?? hehe