man.. i felt like crap today.. i dunno what got into me.. i know it wasn't the threat from today.. my feelings ran deeper than that... i guess its cuz of that "headache" i got after homecoming.. yeah.. a headache from thinking too much.. why can't i just leave everything be?? Must i work so hard on a small "conflict" that i have created to become a huge problem? i wanna know what's going on!!! sTooPid... oh.. and i believe in "ACTION SPEAK LOUDER THAN WORDS"... and i'm getting no lovin' @ school.. haha.. listen to myself.. i'm blabbering on and on.. why? i think i'm not appreciated as much as i used to me.. i've become a .... nobody... .. probably i just expect too much from people.. i give love and expect it back.. who doesn't? right? i just don't feel appreciated... and i guess that's what gets me dissappointed right before i head home.. walking to my car... ALONE.. watching everyone having a good time with their friends... and where am i??? ......alone.. does anyone know i'm torn up inside?? does anyone feel what i feel? can someone just reach out? Why do i cry to love songs?? why do i feel like i'm gonna miss out on SO much when i'm not going to be here on Valentines Day.. why can't i just accept that fact that i'm not wanted everywhere? have i gotten accustomed to receiving "love" from everyone who turned to me for love when no one else gave love?? y does this bother me?! to hell with this crap! *sigh.... is this what has been bottled inside?? that fact that i'm not appreciated as much as i used to be??