dum dee dumm.. today was one of them so-so days.. u know.. the days that just evens themselves out.. My day was going great considering i watched like 5 videos today.. it was a kick back friday for emi! ...but once i got to my car i kinda felt disappointed. I was like that until around 4:30 when i got to the mall. Then i was happy again.. and now i've mellowed out.. hmm.. it's just one of them days i guess. Maybe i just build myself up to an event and then i dissappoint myself because it never happened.. i know i shouldn't keep my expectations high because i'll only make myself feel worse. See, I had plans but ALL of them got cancelled/changed [and i'm really sorry that i didn't get to see the movie with you diana! we will watch it! i promise! if i don't hold that promise then you can hit me. =) ]. My day was suppose to end like this.... 3:00-4:00 go out..possibly get some food cuz i haven't eaten the whole day.. 4:00-5:00 PCN.. 5:00-whenever movie/dinner... PCN practice was only for singkil so i didn't mind not going to that.. but i was looking forward to the other 2.. the movie happened.. but not with the person i planned it with.. instead i went with the family cuz i felt i haven't been paying much attention to them. I feel bad that i stood up diana, cuz i know how it feels to be stood up.. i've had that happen to me a lot lately.. it's not the most pleasing feeling... maybe that's why i was dissappointed.. maybe because i felt stood up.. damn this lack of communication! grrrrr...=/

on a happier note... kick back friday worked for me. =) school finally gave me a break! woo-hoo! No opener.. no test.. just videos in 2nd-5th period.. and a sub in 6th. man.. i didn't have to overwork myself. That was a VERY NICE change. =)

So that was my day... how was yours?

my mommy's gonna have another surgery... =( *sigh*

ok ... so i've finally gotten myself out of that anger stage.. it just took A LOT of venting and crying.. but it's good once inna while yah know? i just felt like everything was falling out of my reach.. my relationships with my friends and family.. but.. i think i got it back on track.. =) so yeah. this weekend was quite interesting! ok so yesterday we had this "MINI PARTY" and my house.. it was like a "GREAT TO BE ALIVE" or "I'M A SURVIVOR" party my mom threw for herself and we had a WHOLE mess of people! and a WHOLE mess of food! mmm.. it was good food too.. yummy.. =) anywho, i finally got to see my cousin and "cousin".. hehe.. it was fun talking with Marissa and Ryan again.. too bad Jing² wasn't there but yah know.. people gotta bring money home some how.. they were telling to be to Cal Poly Pomona cuz they go there haha. Man.. the conversation got pretty intense to.. well.. at least for Ryan hahaha.. but yeah.. i can't believe he's 21 and Marissa's 18.. man.. to them i'm still a youngin.. haha but yeah.. they keep teasing me.. eh wut are cousins for?? hehe we're planning to take a road trip too!! to Frisco!! woo-hoo!! but they're planning to go next week... =(.. i still have school... grrr... hmm.. wut else happened yesterday?? Oh! Chad's inviting me up to Snow Summit... or was it Big Bear.. either way he's inviting me!! woooO!! i get to learn how to snowboard!! hellz yeah!!! oh man.. he's up there like every other weekend n since i had 4 tickets he said that i should come along.. besides. i need to use them before they expire.. they expire like next month!! sheesh.. but yeah! maybe next weekend... if i have nothing to do.. =) hmm.. wut else.. i got to see the HOTTEST GUY today... hahahahaha i was like OMG!! he touch me!! haha =) i wish i can see this guy more often.. cuz he's so HOT!! oh man it's like *tsss... hot.. haha. ;D heheh ok.. maybe i should go before i get carried away..