Hmm.. last week was, all in all, interesting. Of course there was a few curve balls but hey, what's a week in my life without any, right? Shanel's cotillion was night though! i thought it was simple but VERY nice! it showed me that despite my tight budget, i would be able to hold a cotillion. I just won't have a fancy hotel and fancy food. I'll prolly have a small court tho. But not so dress-y.. just.. relax and semi-formal. Besides.. i'll save the formal stuff for later when it REALLY counts. hmm.. but i'm scared that no one will be able to go because of college. heck by the time my birthday comes around everyone will be saying "emi who?" ok ok.. so that's an exageration, but people are going to be too busy to even remember by birthday, so why bother? well, i've never actually felt important so if people did show up that would TOTALLY make my day. but if they can't, that's ok too cuz i would have expected that to happen. Who in their right mind would come back to cerritos after going to college abroad? I'm only confident about one person who would do that for me.

anywho.. valentines is this week... funny. for once i don't despise the fact that i don't have a valentine. i guess cuz i've finally realized that spending valentines day doesn't have to be ALL romantic. heck, i'd rather have fun than get all dolled up to go to a fancy restaurant. I'd rather save that for a more special occasion. Relaxed dating scenes are more my kind of scenes. bowling, movies, renting movies, home cooked meal, going to the beach & sharing a churro.. that's my kind of valentines day (if i had someone to spend it with). And for some odd reason, i'm actually looking forward to valentines day. just thinking of it makes me smile and yet i don't know why. Prolly cuz this is the last valentines day i'm going to spend in high school.. or prolly because i'm laughing inside at the day that card companies, chocolate companies, and flower companies conspire against the whole human race just to squeeze out money from people's wallet. hmm.. interesting. I don't hate the holiday. if anything, i'm a person who had always found romance and mushy stuff intriguing (no matter how much i hid it). but i feel so comfortable right now. it's like.. i've finally let go of something that had been making me hide and i just feel so free. So in leu of Valentines, i would just like to say, "HAPPY VALENTINES DAY! Hope all your dreams come true!"